Ya!

I'M A SENIOR IN COLLEGE!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!

Okay, thats all. Wow. I really need to start venting in this thing again. I have time for it now that I'm on summer break.

Maybe later.

College

Wow.  I guess it's time I write in this again.  I've been so busy that every second I don't have to be on this laptop, I'm not.  This little white laptop, which was my prize possession at the beginning of the semester, has become a momento of stress, hard work, and tired eyes.  I tend to avoid it in my free time.  Anyway, I sit here listening to AJ (Yes, Alan Jackson...don't like him?  You don't know real poetry then!) and I guess he's put me in the mood to write myself.

So, I'm almost a senior in college!  I could lie.  You know, give the typical "Oh my gosh, it went by sooo fast" speech, but the truth is...it didn't.  It seems like forever ago when I first started college in the fall of 2005.  Then in the spring of 2007 I took a semester off to work full time at the BGC.  I've taken so many classes!  I can't even count the endless hours of meaningless homework completed for the sole purpose of receiving a grade.  The many tears that fell due to overwhelming stress, hours of complaining, the dark feeling of it never ending...I remember it all.  So, for me, the process seems like a long, ever-lasting one.  The sight of the light at the end of the tunnel is liberating.  

I guess most importantly, I could ask for no greater reward than graduating.  The hardest part is yet to come.  I begin my internship next year, and if I can be successful at that, then I can consider my college career an overall success.  Graduation will be my greatest victory.  It will be the very first thing in my life that I didn't bail out on when things got tough.  I shamefully admit that my personality is to run as soon as things get hard.  I'm not brave.  The fear of failure pushes me away.  So, for once in my life I have made it this far and I only have 1 more year left until I hold that diploma in my hand with pride.  Gosh.  I literally can't feel it.  Not until it happens.  I guess I'm just a little proud of myself already.  Because in two weeks, I am a senior in college.  And in Exactly one year from today I will be putting together the final pieces of my portfolio, preparing for my exit interview, and buying my cap and gown.

Sun

Here comes the sun and I say, it's alright =)

Song of My Life (At this moment)

"Livin' Part of Life" by Eric Church

I woke up early this morning
and I'm already running late
There's a list of things long as my arm I wanna get done today
Is it Tuesday, is it Wednesday
they're running into each other
Somebody tell me, when is my day
Man this life is sure
So tomorrow I'm taking me fishin'
hang a sign on the door of my life
tell the world that I've gone missing
and I wont' be back for awhile
I'm so tired of only wishin'
I could leave my trouble behind
I wanna be front porch rockin'
with a big sun droppin' and a blue sky
kick back and get high on the living part of life!

They say to keep your spot on the ladder
gotta keep that money rolling in
I've been putting in my time
and I've build up a pretty good day
I'm gonna spend some
maybe waste some
before tomorrow comes and I wind up dead
Yeah so tomorrow I'm taking me fishin'
hang a sign on the door of my life
tell the world that I've gone missing
and I wont' be back for awhile
I'm so tired of only wishin'
I could leave my trouble behind
I wanna be front porch rockin'
with a big sun droppin' and a blue sky
kick back and get high on the living part of life!

I wanna be front porch rockin'
with a big sun droppin' and a blue sky
kick back and get high on the living part of life!

Spring Break

This chick is on Spring Break! Heck ya! So you know what I have to do today? Whatever I want =) That is a good feeling that I haven't had in a long time. Okay, so it will only last a week. But it is a week well needed.

Camping season is in 2 months! Man I can't wait. At this point, I don't even care that the North Fork is a tropical rain forest and we get soaked in May. Why? Because I would rather be standing in the pouring rain on the North Fork next to the fire without a care in the world than be here right now. Wow. I sound crazy. But it's true. I just love it up there. I love the scenery, the smells, the river, the beer that gets drank at noon, the company, the atmosphere. And shortly after May passes the sun comes out and it is beautiful weather up there! Ahh summer. That is what I'm day dreaming about today.

So let's see, what shall I do today? Right now I'm eating Egos, drinking coffee, and blogging. Then I'll probably head to the gym for my Tuesday workout. Come home, shower, probably go have lunch with Lacie. Then if this sun continues to shine her and I will probably walk the bridges, followed by day 2 of cheerleading tryouts. OH and then Nathan and I were invited to dinner with his two bosses. I'm anxious for this dinner. It is with the owner of the company Nathan works for and his immediate supervisor. Nathan just got his journeyman's license so I'm assuming this is a celebration dinner. I told Nathan he has to be good news otherwise they wouldn't be taking us out to dinner but then he reminded me of the movie Jerry McGuire. So, we'll see! And that's my day. So, OCD me has a plan on a day I'm not supposed to have a plan. HA HA HA. Oh to be type A.

Babble

When I lose my mind I like to rhyme...

It's 10:00, I can't sleep
and this stress I can't keep.
If I keep living this way
my mind just might stray.
They say you have to go to college
Am I really paying for this knowledge?
My eyes are hurting, my heads a blur
I look around and there you were.
Right here with me in between
this life would make some feel green.
Yet unsatisfied I manage to be
Oh what spoiled little me.
Shamefully dissatisfied
My life needs modified.

I'm Done

Whoa...Monday hit like a ton of bricks!


Can this week be over with already?